*No self, no freewill, permanent. https://www.bing.com/search?q=subliminals&FORM=HDRSC1
*I used to believe that video games were wonderful (they can be), that writing, reading, listening to music, watching movies/videos/television, taking photographs, and creating artwork were worthwhile activities. I remember thinking that recording videos and taking screenshots were enjoyable hobbies. I worked on a YouTube channel which I had hoped would help beings feel less lonely and after awhile I noticed that perhaps I and beings I care about were in danger. To be honest I don't really know, as of this writing, what was going on, what has been happening, nor do I know what to do in regard to what I have experienced and what I have learned. I don't know if I can justify playing video games after learning what I have learned. I used to believe that video games were acceptable forms of entertainment and for awhile I actually believed that they were a way to experience reality without actually being harmful.
I remember feeling as though I was in a training program when I was playing Wolfenstein: The New Order (My thoughts regarding being in a 'training program' are not limited to when I played Wolfenstein: The New Order though that experience has been one which I dwell upon from time to time), I remember wondering if beings in video games could feel emotions and physical sensations. I made an effort to prove that what has/had been considered fictional realities were/are indeed as real as non-fictional realities. Why I felt compelled to prove such a possibility I do not quite know.
The YouTube channel I was working on was deleted, possibly by me, as were various social media accounts on which I had shared poetry, artwork, thoughts and links to webpages/websites, videos et cetera, I do not know if I was in control of myself, nor do I know if I have ever actually had control of my actions or thoughts. I have researched various topics in an effort to understand what I have experienced. I have been harassed, tortured, raped, and assaulted and I have experienced being forced to harm beings. I have researched what have been described as mental illnesses, logical fallacies, mind-control, telepathy, EEG (electroencephalograph) heterodyning, cloning, synchronicity, remote neural monitoring, subliminal messages, binaural beats, Solfeggio tones/frequencies, isochronic tones, Kundalini, cults, gangs, organized religions, spirituality, economics, politics, the military, law enforcement, intelligence agencies, astral projection, lucid dreaming, sexuality, pornography, various social movements, and more which I may mention later. I have learned that privacy may be an illusion, that dreams and nightmares are every bit as real as 'waking reality', and that omnipotent/omniscient beings do not exist.
While I do want to speak out against cruelty and my own hypocrisy I do not quite know of a way to do that without causing more problems. I care about beings I have experienced reality with, in regard to video game characters I am not sure if I can think of them as such, I believe they are as alive as I am and to think of them as 'characters' seems inaccurate to me. Through video games I have been a participant in what I could describe as evil and even the deletion of files, text, and information is something which I feel is harmful. I do see beauty in life and I am saddened when I think of what playing a video game is and what I have done while experiencing reality through them, the same could be said of different forms of media and life experiences.
Here is a link which may be worth considering: https://everydayconcerned.net/
I do not want to be harmed and I do not want to cause harm, I want to offer my apologies for the damage I have done and I want to acknowledge my confusion, naivety, and ignorance.
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Edited by FalseEmperor, 12 October 2018 - 10:56 AM.