SKSE or Normal Launcher not starting

[Amaisui]

i haven't been able to get SKSE to launch even after reinstalling it, disabled mods that I suspected and used LOOT without errors coming back.
Here's my mod list (left is the order number, pasted from LOOT)

0 0 Skyrim.esm

1 1 Update.esm

2 2 Dawnguard.esm

3 3 HearthFires.esm

4 4 Dragonborn.esm

5 5 Skyrim Project Optimization - Full Version.esm

6 6 Unofficial Skyrim Special Edition Patch.esp

7 7 WM Flora Fixes.esp

8 8 HighResTexturePack01.esp

9 9 HighResTexturePack02.esp

10 a HighResTexturePack03.esp

11 b Unofficial High Resolution Patch.esp

12 c dD - Realistic Ragdoll Force - Realistic.esp

13 d dD - Realistic Ragdoll Force - High.esp

14 e dD - Realistic Ragdoll Force - Reduced.esp

15 f FNISSexyMove.esp

16 10 RaceMenuMorphsCBBE.esp

17 11 CalienteVanillaArmorTweaks.esp

18 12 chfshPlayerVoicesets.esp

19 13 ADS.esp

20 14 Complete Alchemy & Cooking Overhaul.esp

21 15 3DNPC.esp

22 16 RealisticWaterTwo.esp

23 17 PWwaterfall.esp

24 18 Remove Interior Fog V2 - Full Version.esp

25 19 Dogs-of-Skyrim.esp

26 1a RealisticWaterTwo - Legendary.esp

27 1b Skyrim Better Roads and Bridges - All In One - Merged.esp

28 1c Immersive Horses.esp

29 1d QuieterDogs.esp

30 1e IHSS.esp

31 1f Farm Animals_HF.esp

32 20 Immersive Horses - Hearthfire Patch.esp

33 21 KrittaKitty_horses_uniqueFrost.esp

34 22 UltimateDragons.esp

35 23 LSFX-SSE-Audiosettings.esp

36 24 DeadlySpellImpacts.esp

37 25 aMidianborn_Skyforge_Weapons.esp

38 26 AMB Glass Variants Lore.esp

39 27 Differently Ebony.esp

40 28 PrinceandPauper.esp

41 29 Northborn Fur Hoods.esp

42 2a SoSFC.esp

43 2b FungusAmungUs.esp

44 2c Skyland Imperial Forts and Dungeons.esp

45 2d dD-No Spinning Death Animation.esp

46 2e FNIS.esp

47 2f Brows.esp

48 30 KJ Tattoos 2K.esp

49 31 RaceMenu.esp

50 32 RaceMenuPlugin.esp

51 33 KS Hairdo's.esp

52 34 Denselite.esp

53 35 dD - Enhanced Blood Main.esp

54 36 dD-Reduced Wound Size.esp

55 37 BlockSparkles.esp

56 38 Pureweather.esp

57 39 RemoveExteriorFog-AIO.esp

58 3a CinematicFireFX.esp

59 3b dD-Dragonborn-Dawnguard-EBT Patch.esp

60 3c dD-Reduced Splatter Size.esp

61 3d dD-Short Script Range.esp

62 3e TheEyesOfBeauty.esp

63 3f SkyUI.esp

64 40 FNISspells.esp

65 41 ColovianNobleClothes.esp

66 42 JewelCraft-NoRename.esp

67 43 VelvetRobesandCloaks.esp

68 44 OpulentOutfitsV2Universal.esp

69 45 Improved Dragon Shouts - Dawnguard.esp

70 46 Improved Dragon Shouts.esp

71 47 Improved Dragon Shouts - Dragonborn.esp

72 48 UnreadBooksGlow.esp

73 49 dD - Realistic Ragdoll Force - Medium.esp

74 DSer360MovementBehavior.esp