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What can you do?

Idk if I am allowed to post this on here but I'm going to do it anyways. I'll feel a lot better once I've apologized. I know I've probably angered some of the people on here or established myself as argumentative with others. I don't flame or hate on others mods at all, by the way. That isn't at all what this is about. The reason I make this post is because I just have trouble controlling my emotions and was quick to anger if I felt insulted or threatened by someone. I want to throw an apology out there in case anyone who has seen me act like that can understand why. I can't just PM everyone. XD I am bipolar and have been suffering from depression for a very long time. Probably since I entered elementary school, I am 19 now. That's a long time to be depressed and life hasn't been very good to me. Deaths in the family, financial hardship, father abandoning me as a baby and dying right before I turn 18, a hurricane, bullying, loneliness, etc etc. It can go on but you should get the picture. I haven't been well, and that took a toll with my modding and my interactions with both users and other modders. But lately I have been taking steps to better myself. I got diagnosed for bipolar disorder and am currently being medicated for it. Been going on for about a month now. Since I've started taking that medication I've only had one crying/depression episode and most of the time I've been happy, eager to mod, eager to meet others. I've also been forgiving all those who wronged me so horribly in my life. Even better, I've got an actual job now involving working with disabled people and it makes me feel happy. Exhausted, yes. But happy that I'm doing something meaningful instead of locking myself in my room and feeling sorry for myself and hating the world for what it had given me. I make this post and reveal all this to you to say I am sorry. I've argued and angered plenty of people on here in the past. Annoyed others, and alienated more. I've been distant and cold to some people, and I've downright gotten so angry I've insulted others. (Everytime I look at my one Informal Warning, I cringe because I had let my emotions take over instead of handling it like an adult at the time.) I am really sorry for how I've acted, and I acknowledge most of it was my fault. But I have taken steps to fix the mess I'm in and to fix my situation and give back positive energy in both this world and my life. Thank you for reading, and to those who have experienced how I acted I hope you can forgive me. :smile:

Thanks for the reply, but the only mods I have installed are YUP, My Mod, and a Ghoul Ganger mod I have yet to release. Could Load Order changes still have an effect? I'm thinking of adding everything that disappears by hand and write a script that enables them when the things finally disappear so it'll be as if they never disappeared in the first place. They're in the foreground btw.

I am currently playtesting a mod that I've been working on for a while now and making sure no bugs exist. I cannot be sure if my mod causes this or not because FNV is just a buggy game in general but I have my suspicions because when I disable the mod in question and try it nothing bad happens. I enable the mod and, when starting the battle for Hoover Dam, upon leaving the Legate's Camp I am treated to a scene where Legion and NCR start fighting. Thing is, not long after, the bridge leading to the dam from the Legate's Camp disappears alongside the road, sandbags, and railings. I have no idea what would cause this, my mod literally doesn't even edit or add anything on that side of the Dam, let alone touch the scripts, so I can't tell if I need to worried about it being my mod or if it is just luck of the draw. Can anyone help me out here? I guess it isn't exactly a game breaking bug and it is very specific in where it happens so it wont be noticed all that much, but even so. Releasing a mod with that kind of bug wont really be appreciated by anybody. :/ I post this here and at New Vegas Mod Troubleshooting because it could either be the mod's fault or the game's fault.

I am currently playtesting a mod that I've been working on for a while now and making sure no bugs exist. I cannot be sure if my mod causes this or not because FNV is just a buggy game in general but I have my suspicions because when I disable the mod in question and try it nothing bad happens. I enable the mod and, when starting the battle for Hoover Dam, upon leaving the Legate's Camp I am treated to a scene where Legion and NCR start fighting. Thing is, not long after, the bridge leading to the dam from the Legate's Camp disappears alongside the road, sandbags, and railings. I have no idea what would cause this, my mod literally doesn't even edit or add anything on that side of the Dam, let alone touch the scripts, so I can't tell if I need to worried about it being my mod or if it is just luck of the draw. Can anyone help me out here? I guess it isn't exactly a game breaking bug and it is very specific in where it happens so it wont be noticed all that much, but even so. Releasing a mod with that kind of bug wont really be appreciated by anybody. :/ I post this here and at New Vegas Technical Support because it could either be the mod's fault or the game's fault.