Lindy, I can't tell you what to do with your money... if nothing else it would give you reason to declare me a persona non grata for ensuring you the game would be so immersive, and so moddable, and so fun, that you'd actually turn your revulsion into anger and actually enjoy blowing the hated corpse-bags away in great gouts of blood and guts. But, as I said, I can't. I'm a die-hard RPer so I can understand your desire to try it; I mean, let's face it, the new and interesting RPGs are a small number and that's even allowing for the ones that claim they're RPG but are just RTS. *grumble* There is no way to avoid the mutants, so if you ARE that repulsed, please don't waste your money. And please, don't turn to a boring grind-fest game like Aion or step backwards to WoW. Now, one thing you MAY like is the possibility of using NO weapons, or two handed; bypassing the gun thing totally. Course, there will still be lots of lead flying at you, and shrapnel, and the occasional spew and giblets of dubious origin... but hey, this isn't a NICE game. Its an ugly world, with ugly bodily fluids and people who are out only for themselves... hell its even got misguided religious nutballs! I dunno if there's a demo, but you may want to check around? good luck