looks like fallout must really hate me because this didn't help either anyways i went to my plugin.txt and replaced every * with nothing after that the game works just like it should but without any plugins so it has to be an esm,esl,esp or maybe more that causes it to crash i tested around 80 or so until it crashed again after deactivating "Skyship Welder.esp" i thought everything was normal again until i started fallout a 2nd time and then the same crashing started no matter if Skyship Welder was disabled or not