phforNZ
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A few songs that cut a little close to the bone for me. They're all from Papa Roach.
Last Resort
Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces, I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong? Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might
Mudilation out of sight, and I'm contimplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on my chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying, I'm crying
I'm crying, I'm crying
I ... can't ... go ... on ... living ... this ... way
Cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a f*ck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong? Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight? Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight, and I'm contemplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I ... CAN'T ... GO ... ON ... LIVING ... THIS ... WAY
Can't go on ... living this way
Nothing's alright!
(This was from a few years ago, reminds me how close to suicide I got - after my Grandfather passed away, everything fell apart. I still haven't completely shaken the urges, but my friends keep me with my feet firmly in the land of the living.)
Blood (Empty Promises)
I will forgive but I won't forget
And I hope you know you've lost my respect
You better watch out cause you don't know what's going on around you
You better think twice before you fly off the handle and lose it
You better join us before you get lost in the shuffle
You gotta rise against the demons that are gonna try and hold you down
Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love? (x2)
The ones you love .. (x3)
Cause I'm not a pawn for you to play in your f*cking game
I've got dignity and a dream that I want to achieve
Under pressure you crumbled and you let me down
But I'm not deaf, and all I hear are your empty promises
Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love? (x4)
(Blood) The ones you love .. (x4)
Does it run in your blood to betray the ones you love?
Yes it runs in your blood to betray the ones you love (x4)
I will forgive but I won't forget
And I hope you know you've lost my respect
Yes it runs in your blood to betray the ones you love (x2)
(A particular part of my family aren't the nicest people on the planet.)
Not Listening
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I learn, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I hear, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore, no ..
Cause you gotta be bigger, and be faster, and be stronger
If you're gonna survive any longer
In this lifetime it better be the right time
Cause your first time might be your last time
Am I a failure if I got nothing to lose?
No I'm not a failure, I've got something to prove
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I learn, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I hear, the more I ignore
The more I ignore ..
Cause I've lost my innocence
And I'm a stranger, a life changer
I'm a man that's not afraid of danger
I walk my own path, and blaze my own trail
Because I'm not afraid to derail
I won't get in line, or be a middle man
So f*ck you, I've made my own plans
And I got respect, and I don't neglect the people that I really care to protect
Am I a failure if I got nothing to lose?
No I'm not a failure, I got something to prove
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I learn, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I hear, the more I ignore
I told you before I won't listen no more
I told you before let's settle the score
I told you before I won't listen no more
I told you before let's settle the score
If not me, then who? If not now, then when? (x2)
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I learn, the more I ignore
I'm not listening, not anymore
The more I hear, the more I ignore
I told you before I won't listen no more
I told you before let's settle the score
I told you before I won't listen no more
I told you before let's settle the score
Shut it up, burn it out
Blow it up, set it off
F*ck it up, check it out
Burn it up, blow it up
Right now!
(Overcoming said family members hurtful behaviour towards me... they tried to run & ruin my life)
Quite honestly, I don't know what I'd do without music. It's the only way I've found to deal with all the s**t that crops up in everyday life.
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I'm pretty sure the whole lot is all Slof's work - which is a shame, as she's withdrawn her mods, mostly due to the hate received from the immature brats (who have no problems whatsoever with over-endowed stark naked ladies), which unfortunately do happen to show up around this place, who couldn't handle the exposed male genitalia.
The only way you're are likely to get the mods, is to hope that someone shares them with you.
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And this is why you should never mention Runescape on the internet... It really brings out the hate. lol.
(oh, and I do share the sentiments that were so colourfully describe by JahRasta - Runescape = EWWWWW)
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The entire Marathon trilogy (awesome - just a shame that it got overshadowed by Doom)
The Settlers I (I believe the US got it as Serfs & Settlers)
Dune 1 + 2
Speedball 2 (best sports game ever)
(oh, I also have a nice old game lying about somewhere... by the name of TES:Arena :wink: - borderline retro I guess)
And, geez, since when has CnC been called retro? Did I miss a memo? Last I checked, retro was early-90s or earlier...
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I've just recently reinstalled Oblivion after a 2 year hiatus. Last time I remember playing I had a mod that made opening the crates and sacks in the Imperial City a crime (theft). For the life of me I don't remember what it was called. Any help pointing me in the right direction would be appreciated.
That particular feature I know is in OOO (Oscuro's Oblivion Overhaul). It also changes a huge pile of other stuff.
There is probably a small little mod that does that however (unfortunately, this I do not know)
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what are some mods that improve the general looking of npcs? especially female
One option would be to install the HGEC female body mod, and then get CW Sexy stock replacer.
But thats just one option.
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@meeps and phforNZ:
I have asked the poster of the Fallen Angel pic for information on the armor. I will hopefully have an update and if so I will edit this post with the information.
I've managed to track it down, thanks to a member here. It's Hentai's Void Armour. All added into my game now :)
Thanks for the help so far, though - but I'm all sorted.
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DO you remember where you found the pic originally?
Aye. that particular one is in the images section here. And before you ask, yes, I have asked people before for a name to the mod. Never got a reply. Hence, why I am here asking.
(also, Ive even had a good dig around in the armour/weapons and items/clothes/... categories, couldnt find it.)
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Greetings good people! Hopefully someone here can help me. I've seen this particular armour popping up around the place IMAGE
Hopefully someone can put a name, or even an author to it? I don't mind having to search for it myself, just I have nothing to go on :(
Invisible helmet request
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I do remember a mod that would make whatever helmet you were wearing invisible (vanilla, custom, worked for all) and it could be toggled on and off.
Can't remember what it was called though. Perhaps someone else can recall its name.