I have been thinking a lot today, about what is important and not. What do you think?

[Pellape]

So what is the point of doing what we do? Just stick your head out of the window and you see crazy stuff or get a bullet in your head    I am not afraid honestly as I am 60 but still I have seen a lot of weird stuff going on.

I did talk to a girl at the bus station in the middle of Gothenburg today, asking her for the time as my battery went out and suddenly a guard was standing next to her. I told the guard he did a nice job protecting the girl as I am very dangerous (I am not) but honestly, anyone can do crazy stuff. It is Saturday night and no one is safe.

So I have also asked myself, why on earth do we torture our self to be able to play a game the way we like to play it? Must it really be so hard to get games to work, forcing us to use the right version of stuff and hardware, software you name it and it is a bloody jungle. Fortunately I have worked as a computer technician for 23 years but that not always help at all. I cannot make wonders. My monitor turn of it self when I try to run an AMD ryzen 4600 G through DVI and why??  Not even Bing AI can help me fix it as Bing AI often have good answers and I am very impressed of it so far but still my monitor is black. I was told to try HDMI but my monitor has only VGA and DVI and I am broke. My former coworkers are not much help as I know more than they do anyway about computers. So they do not know anything really. This is not easy, I can promise you that much.

Becomming a Computer Graphic pro takes forever it feels right now. I have 1.5 year left and I do not only need to learn how make fantastic graphics as I also need to learn how to make animations and movies. Our teacher is the only teacher in Gothenburg that knows it all and every damn graphic student in this town had him as a teacher and we do have a lot of fun in school no doubt and we are a big community where every graphic artist know eachothers and meet time to time and the community is growing, which also make it harder to get a job as all are so damn good but now I am so extremely tired. Why? Well to learn to do things natural in optimized ways do demand a lot of energy for the brain as it also need to make new synapses and I learned about this when I went to Biology classes last year as I now have both a technical education and also a natural one, well Biology, Chemics and Physics so how much info can my brain really take in? Where or what is the limit of the Terabyte data we can process every day?  I went to bed 3 times today during the day to be able to think at all and on top of that, I forgot to load my batteries before I went out on a bus tour and we do use the telephone as a busticket here    I had to sneak into the bus at the backdoor    

-Please pass the front door for ticket inspection!!!!  Do not enter the backdoor.

I was ready to get of the bloody bus if I saw the ticket inspectors or they had  thrown me off anyway. They do use white caps here so all I looked for was their ugly hats  I went into to 4-5 stores, aksing if anyone could assist me with my phone to get it working and not a single one was helpful. I did meet a nice girl in a  shop called Pressbyron and she looked all over the place for a cable but she did not find one so she was helpful and a bit nerdy too, but sweet. I asked her why not use a cable you have  behind you in that box? She asked me, do you wanna  buy that cable and I said no, I cannot afford it as I am a poor student. Well I cannot break the seal or I need to buy it myself she replied. Seals? What a joke. Stuff is so bloody expensive and I have to count every damn Swedish crown or I will starve.  Here is a picture of our beloved King:

He do not need to starve at least...    Our richest social case around here.    He drives around in sportcars, get stopped and if they see it is the king, they just let him go. He can do what ever that pleases him without any consequences. Life as a king must be good, and still he complains about how hard he think it is...  We do have a TV series now running in swedish TV, where we see what happens behind the close doors. It is interesting. He is extremely boring as a person honestly.    The most boring swede you will ever meet 

What am I doing alone at home anyway? I was at my GFs apartment but I did miss the game as I wanna play it but before that, I wanna write some no sense. Well she need a break from me anyway and also relax some as she is a teacher.

Why does colors and pictures and games and this emulations mean so much for us? The excitement of playing  a stupid game? Adding so many programs to make it work the way we want it to work, installing so much software to just be able to mod the game. What are we doing really?    We will get tired of the game one day, when we done it all, we have 35 bases all over the universe, we visited every damn space station and killed all the Crimsons all over again and again and the pop up elsewhere, within 3 days and we keep killing  them until the computer breaks down or the game stops to work, and we sit here like baboons and do not know what to do next 

repetitive? Yes, it is repetetive. To make life easier I did make this solution so I could just enjoy the fun part of the game, not the boring stuff as how fun is to shop? I hate shopping really but I love credits, okay, we can cheat and just add an amount of  F to the player, add F 100000 and we are rich...      Then we can buy a starship and go by west and takje a space ride.    Add A 200 and we can unlock all the nice chests ;D  Well I stop now and go in game as I really need to kill some Crimsons off the spacestation. 

Peek at this simple Skyrim mod. It sure aided me to keep the game fun. I hate shopping. I had a similar shop emulator in Oblivion, where I was the shop manager and I loved that mod. We do have a simlar mod in Skyrim where we can add the whole inventory to the ground and everyone can buy the junk from you. That is  immersive or just go and install needing mods so you starve or freeze to death.  I just need to go outdoors and I freeze my butt of for real. 

Rants off...    

 

I need to study these scripts later as I forgot how I made them, together with the Skyrim Community

https://www.nexusmods.com/skyrimspecialedition/mods/71234

Also I have to check how I managed to recall the Dvemer horsie and also how we used Xedit to allow our companions to actually ride their horse when we gave one to them. What about horse riding in Starfield? I mean they do ride horses even in Star Trek, so why not?  Is it important?  Nope it is not really....    We do have spaceships. 

https://www.nexusmods.com/skyrimspecialedition/mods/72073

What will I summon in Starfield?  Well chests, companions, tools you name it. Anything that makes life easy to live. But we do not have magic and we cannot just summon stuff in the thin air?  Yes we can 

Edited December 9, 2023 by Pellape