EpiceneBlue Posted July 28 Share Posted July 28 Hello all. I have been very sick for a long time and am permanently disabled. It has been years now since I have been able to play Skyrim and my very favorite mod DLC - Legacy. So I am seriously seriously behind on Skyrim modding in its present state. I don't even know if you have to clean masters anymore or remember how if you do! I'm doing a little better on new meds and would really love to have my game back as a distraction and help with pain management. But I have very limited ability to think through all the complexities of modding anymore (mild brain damage) and physically I have very limited time I can sit at a keyboard. So I am looking for someone who would be able to create an easily installed Nexus mod pack for me. Mostly just Legacy and related stable mods and some cosmetics for character & NPCS, and I wouldn't mind some prettying up with some graphics and landscape mods that don't conflict. If there is anyone that might be interested, please give me a DM. I am willing to pay well for the help. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Karna5 Posted July 29 Share Posted July 29 As a disabled player, I think you may be looking at your challenge incorrectly, EpicneBlue. If you don't force yourself to do things which are challenging to you, the ability to find happiness and escape from your problems will elude you. Even if you can only work on a project a little bit a day, you should make the effort every day. Being able to create things or do things on your own, no matter how difficult or painful it may be, should be your daily ritual. Also, trying and failing is still better than not trying. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dewayne3478 Posted July 29 Share Posted July 29 (edited) Im 46 yrs old disabled person been modding going bout 15 yrs. I been having modding issues lately in skyrim. I got some help, but not much. I kinda figured out one my major issue how i was using mods updated last decade.My last question the forum was more of curiousitious then need to know.. But I am attempting to figure out it on my own. Edited July 31 by dewayne3478 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Karna5 Posted July 29 Share Posted July 29 Life never gets easier. It only gets harder. For the permanently disabled, there's also never hope. There is only coping, and it's a task which must be repeated every day, every hour, every minute. In my experience, the effort of creating something, even if it's often distressing and frustrating in its difficulty, is still an escape from what would otherwise be despair. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
dewayne3478 Posted July 31 Share Posted July 31 On 7/28/2024 at 10:31 PM, Karna5 said: Life never gets easier. It only gets harder. For the permanently disabled, there's also never hope. There is only coping, and it's a task which must be repeated every day, every hour, every minute. In my experience, the effort of creating something, even if it's often distressing and frustrating in its difficulty, is still an escape from what would otherwise be despair. I live by the US S.E.A.Ls saying the the only easy day was yesterday Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EpiceneBlue Posted August 5 Author Share Posted August 5 On 7/28/2024 at 8:51 PM, Karna5 said: As a disabled player, I think you may be looking at your challenge incorrectly, EpicneBlue. If you don't force yourself to do things which are challenging to you, the ability to find happiness and escape from your problems will elude you. Even if you can only work on a project a little bit a day, you should make the effort every day. Being able to create things or do things on your own, no matter how difficult or painful it may be, should be your daily ritual. Also, trying and failing is still better than not trying. Hey. I used to make mods. Skyrim mods, Fallout mods, etc. I literally made one of the most popular F04 mods ever in the first two years the game was out. Featured in hundreds of articles and YouTube videos etc. So don't lecture me on 'creating things'. My wife is dying. Literally. From a horrible cancer eating her alive that she's exhausted all treatments for. Every minute she is awake, I'm spending it with her. My day is PAIN 24/7 and exhaustion from two incurable rare diseases that have left me largely bedbound every moment I'm not taking care of her or my own basic needs. Every day my strength & mobility and dexterity diminish. That 'hour a day' I MIGHT have between dealing with basic survival for me & my wife, I'd like to NOT be engaged in a 'project' thanks very much. I just want to PLAY my favorite game while I still fvxking can for a little bit of a distraction from the hell of my life, and I'd like it to be modded with a few of my favorite things - particularly the mod that makes it worth replaying for me and supporting / companion mods. I don't want to waste the very, very precious time I have left relearning all the things my damaged brain has forgotten about modding, learning all the new things that have changed in the last years, or figuring out all the tedious time-eating junk of getting everything setup. This was the most ableist and disrespectful POS post imaginable. Even worse if you are actually a disabled person in any way. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EpiceneBlue Posted August 5 Author Share Posted August 5 On 7/31/2024 at 1:56 PM, dewayne3478 said: I live by the US S.E.A.Ls saying the the only easy day was yesterday Read previous post and kindly F off. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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