Most painful moment in life.

[Keanumoreira]

Being autistic and all leads to having lacking social skills which once got me dumped in front of a whole school and being the subject of fun for the rest of the year ... ooh what does my illness spruce up my life ...

 

Oh man, that's just brutal. But don't be afriad to express yourself here, all commentors (Commenters? :laugh: ) are welcome. Except for trolls.

[Vindekarr]

Autism is a mean female dog.

 

Trust me when I say though that the problem doesnt lie in autism but actualy the way people with autism are treated. I'm autistic. I've also got an IQ of over 145-thats more than double the human normal(72), I also learned to walk months early, am a frightuflly quick learner, but dont say much, and what I do say is utterly devoid of subtlety.

 

Now, considering how quickly I advanced as a child, and how smart the education system claims I am, Why then does my lack of speach make me a retard to be locked away? Because I was tossed in the SEU classroom imediately upon joining highschool, one of the teachers there complained, and right in front of me the principle said "we dont need freaks further ruining our repuation, keep it here."

 

Now, because of my up bringing, I really hate being pushed around by my inferiors. I fought tooth and claw to get out of that hole, and eventualy was able to beg borrow and steal the year 10 work I was rated for (I was year eight) and started doing extremely well at it, especialy history science and language. It took me a full year to prove I was suffiently human-witted to be allowed to participate in drama class, and was eventualy put into main classing. I was the highest grade scorer of my age by then, and had the biggest IQ.

 

But I was bullied out of that school by a number of teachers who simply could not tolerate being outsmarted by a retard. After being told I "should be institutionalised" for the thrid time, this time by the deputy principle, I simply left. I mean that. Right there, right then. I phoned my ffather, who was off work that day, and he picked me up. It was a beautifuly dramatic exit, since my love of vehicles come partialy from my dad-he had at the time a beautiful old Honda Shadow motorbike, was a hell of a way to leave.

 

The other painful stigma is asperga's syndrome. This is a fun one to have. If you're going to have a "retarding syndrome" you'd want this. It causes "nueral specialisation". It's seen as a negaqtive thing because those with it often focus in on a task and can often not be distracted at all until they choose to step away. This is bad for the australian curriculum, but it's great for your grades.

 

I've got both asperger and autism to a degree, it made me very unpopular with bigot teachers, but my attention span was recently tested and is over 9 hours at maximum concentration. Furthermore, the fixation with certain subjects seen often in aspergers for me is across a broad subject matter-science and technology, aswell as language/drama and can easily be blended together. Nonetheless, teachers dont like students who sit utterly silent, dont answer questions, and are gruff and abrasive.

 

It's for this reason I was eventualy expelled from my second highschool, "my kind just werent welcome" I see my "disabilities" as a gift, not a curse. Talking to people isnt something I'm called to do so why bother being an orator? On the other hand, knowing a vast amount about science, technology, language, history, and having schooling in drama all have helped me greatly, so I happily trade off totaly lack of social skills for abilities ideal for my lifestyle.

 

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[Aranox]

The other painful stigma is asperga's syndrome. This is a fun one to have. If you're going to have a "retarding syndrome" you'd want this. It causes "nueral specialisation". It's seen as a negaqtive thing because those with it often focus in on a task and can often not be distracted at all until they choose to step away. This is bad for the australian curriculum, but it's great for your grades.

 

I have asperga's ... funny thing though , im pretty silent and all , but when people ask me anything , im usually the first one to widen the topic , im engaging , although I dont make the first step ...

The other fact is , indeed , how other people see towards autism ... I feel different , and I know im different , but im trying to make the best of it , and some people just rather keep their heads to the fact that im "a freak" in a matter of speaking ... I was bullied at lower grades , and as a result I bullied back ... its no excuse , and even today I still feel bad about it ... anyways , not to go to deep on that ... its all a matter of perspective ... ive learned to grow out of the anti-social behavior and I do have a social life , communicating with guys from my age is easy for me , however when talking to girls I always seem to ... well ... be so silent and all ...

I also have ADD , and I take meds for that , so when I take those meds , my "super concentration mode" kicks in ... which is very handy at times ...

 

in a short version , you learn to appreciate whatever you can or cannot , dont let people get you down because they think otherwise ... I know I did that for a long time , and there is no profit to be gained ...

 

 

Greetz,

Thomas

[Keanumoreira]

Sometimes the world can be so cruel. :rolleyes:

[Balagor]

Some of our greatest genious are autistic. http://www.child-autism-parent-cafe.com/famous-people-with-autism.html

As for mine Bipolar disorder, well I have never been mocked for real. I was the loner. But my "different mind" too has its advanges. I can stay awake longer, I can be more creative, and for a longer time.

But that was off topic. My most painfull moments were not physical. Pain is my friend, as I say. I even go to the dentist with no anaesthesia. (even wisdoms)

No, mental pain is my weak spot. After a "nice tour" in a mania, comes the depression. It´s horrible. Worse pain here was 12 weeks commited to the secured mental hospital. Pain, pain, pain.

[grannywils]

Balagor: You too have my respect. Living with this disorder is a daily struggle. My best friend is bi-polar, and she has struggled for 35 or 40 years with it, even with medication. They constantly have to adjust and readjust. It cannot be any fun. You have my very best wishes and good thoughts.

[Aranox]

What does being bi-polar mean ? Id like to hear it from you instead of reading it up because such things are really hard to stick on people since people just differ ...

[Balagor]

What does being bi-polar mean ? Id like to hear it from you instead of reading it up because such things are really hard to stick on people since people just differ ...

 

In Danish we call it "Manio Depressive". If you are from French speakin Belgium, I think it´s called "Follie Circulere" in French.

It does so that my mood can change all of a sudden. Not just a little, but I can go raving maniac (when I am in the happy mood). This is the best mood. I feel superior, I can do anything, I´m invincible. I can go on and on and on, and do not sleep. However this can be a little dangerous. I tried sometimes not to sleep for 5-7 days (without dying). I also totally loose my self controle when I am in the state of mania. I once spend 10.000 EUR at computer parts, 4000 EUR for taxi driving, etc, etc. I get stupid unrealistic ideas, that I try to carry out, but in vain. I usually end up(or I did before) drunk, exhausted, nearly another person, and close to sucide...........the alcohol was for trying to calm down. To day I have tranzquilizers.

After a mania often comes a long period of a deep depression. I can not eat, move, watch tv, nothing. I can not even dress myself. I don´t care if the whole world is going to fall apart. I just want to die. I can not talk, I am afraid of everything, even my own shadow. I need help to enter a supermarket, and if there are too many people inside, I can not go in there. A mania takes sometimes 4 months, the depression another 3 months and with recovering, it can take almost a year before I am sane again.

To all those who wonder: No, I am not dangerous to others but myself. Nearly made it to the other side many times.

I had the symptoms since I was 14 years old, I got the diagnoses when I was 40. My life untill then was a living hell.

[Aranox]

wow ... and here I thought my life was a B**** to get through :s

My deepest compasion for you ... and a kudos ... since I cant really show the compasion ...

[Keanumoreira]

What does being bi-polar mean ? Id like to hear it from you instead of reading it up because such things are really hard to stick on people since people just differ ...

 

In Danish we call it "Manio Depressive". If you are from French speakin Belgium, I think it´s called "Follie Circulere" in French.

It does so that my mood can change all of a sudden. Not just a little, but I can go raving maniac (when I am in the happy mood). This is the best mood. I feel superior, I can do anything, I´m invincible. I can go on and on and on, and do not sleep. However this can be a little dangerous. I tried sometimes not to sleep for 5-7 days (without dying). I also totally loose my self controle when I am in the state of mania. I once spend 10.000 EUR at computer parts, 4000 EUR for taxi driving, etc, etc. I get stupid unrealistic ideas, that I try to carry out, but in vain. I usually end up(or I did before) drunk, exhausted, nearly another person, and close to sucide...........the alcohol was for trying to calm down. To day I have tranzquilizers.

After a mania often comes a long period of a deep depression. I can not eat, move, watch tv, nothing. I can not even dress myself. I don´t care if the whole world is going to fall apart. I just want to die. I can not talk, I am afraid of everything, even my own shadow. I need help to enter a supermarket, and if there are too many people inside, I can not go in there. A mania takes sometimes 4 months, the depression another 3 months and with recovering, it can take almost a year before I am sane again.

To all those who wonder: No, I am not dangerous to others but myself. Nearly made it to the other side many times.

I had the symptoms since I was 14 years old, I got the diagnoses when I was 40. My life untill then was a living hell.

 

Oh my goodness, no one should endure such mental travesty. I'm sorry this had to happen to you B, and I hope the world isn't too rough on you. And even if they are, you still have us. :happy: