Ignorance isn't bliss when a sign is repeated several times suggesting

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How is your health? How is your work? Retirement got you down? Or dare I ask what you're doing to keep from becoming bored to death?

You don't need to answer if what I suspect is a fact. Except please answer my request that follows so I will know if I am correct in any of my assumptions about a small fear I have acquired. Ignorance isn't bliss when a sign is repeated several times suggesting myself through my ignorance is causing discomfort in your mind.

I see the sign that suggests we have each other listed as friend, 'Remove me as a friend' is there. Is there a block or ignore switch you've turned on?

Yes or no. if yes, I'll click on Remove me as a friend after you answer so I won't peek in here again.

If yes is the answer I need no reason for your decision. I have such a flighty mind I can think of many reasons why. The most likely one being I have a flighty mind.

I know that twinge of emotion we are known to have, and it will happen, a major or minor twinge. Because I have a flighty mind and am well along that path to the point passed the point of no return I'll be far away and you won't hear my thought, or see me peek in, even to be as a whisper.

So share with me this one time no reason or rhyme, just say, Yes you've blocked me or you have added me to your Ignore list, so I can understand the reason why I see, 'Remove me as a friend' still on your profile page and yet your Avatar no longer appears in my friends list.

Understanding is important. So please don't leave me hanging.

Wonder, I need to understand this cliffhanger I am stalled by. BECAUSE I've never used Block or Ignore so I have no understanding of how it works.

Is it why don't I see your Avatar in my Friends list?

Believe me when I say, it keeps me from leaving if I imagine some other reason is why it's still says on your site, Remove me as a friend, but I see not your Avatar in my friends list.

My flights of fantasy are not fine with this arrangement of Not Knowing for Sure. if you can't decide what is important in a friendship and I can not find that you are one of those who doesn't mind my flighty mind that occasions to wander into dark places because I peeked into a posted thread and been thrashing and fisting fighting with the evil/good for the life of me and I dread in the struggles I will be alone, even if I escape, and I can get away from there without a scar on my memory.

A friendship that at times even makes you feel uncomfortable?

I know from my own times on this forum I ran like a frightened child and Removed all of the friends in my friends list because of those discoveries I made, that you talk about you're so familiar with; it is dull conversation to your thinking. While I found myself wanting to climb out of the depths I strolled into.

I wanted to fly away to another planet just to get a safe distance from the wondrous ways of people's thinking, while I struggled to think, and make you think I was a mature man. I am fully grown physically, yes! Yet I am a child, retired to that state by either an accident, a disease, or a fist fight.

I wrote down in the posts what poured out of me hoping it would loosen my fears and let me return to being a mature mental man again.

I'm not dull and senseless, I was filled with wonder and met senselessness again just as a child does with a stranger, a baby sitter at times.

I wondered aloud at times and it got me beat senseless several times, because I spoke up so I could learn again. The people who saw my body was not a baby beat me in ways I never thought I would get up from again. Somehow I managed to get to a hospital after they left me.

Believe me I did not let them take me down easy in ways that might seem ok too many whose words I have read.

I know why I have run away. Removing all my words, for those friends I did not want to frighten their future children. Because of the way the world's people used to treat people that are mentally retarded or have become a child again among people who I used to think were safe to be with when I was adult minded well knowing my sense of self defense.

I took my words away to keep the thoughts I shared from damaging any youths thoughts.

Then I awakened from a close encounter we all share once or twice in our life times. I realized I was posting on a website in a country where everyone was wiser than I Street Wiser.

I began to dry my eyes and realized the people that were calling American's out of their ways of thinking and acting. I am mature again.

It seemed to me like each time I regained a part of my damaged brain I was dying.

Instead it was just a sweet voice telling me, I've already been through all these deadly feelings. I've been through all the growing pains before.

The End

Again

A new beginning.

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I was getting used to the feeling I had just solved all the wondrous illusions I have been seeing and was fully alert to all the reasons people who I tried to be friends with did what they did, belittling, tricks to out smart me, and so on.

 

I was preparing to go out into RL and found one more thing. It shouted out from Twitter leading to TED.com.

 

The Price of Being Single. https://ideas.ted.com/the-price-of-being-single/

 

Just another reason I've been getting thrashed from every direction. Each new sign to another community and I thought I might not be uncomfortable with the families where the sign pointed.

 

So it seems this might be the one. The last post I post, because I've been getting hit from all sorts of different directions. If you wonder how it is I managed to NOT KNOW why people outside the USA have such angry attitudes about U. S. of A's people, it's because I've been fighting to get up from the last person I got knocked down by who was either an American unhappy with how I looked, acted, and sought to breed with their women, or an Alien that wandered in from across the border and knocked me down before I could travel to find out if there were any women in other parts of the world outside the border.

 

Why does Trump want a wall around the U. S. of A. To keep people in, like intelligently innocent children, to keep them from straying to far away from home, and to keep people out who want to rearrange the way the American who get complained about so we all here think we must defend them when they come home from abroad.

 

Even though, I didn't know and now it's clear why I am so misunderstood. I didn't know.

 

And this is why: https://ideas.ted.com/the-price-of-being-single/

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What's on my mind this morning?

A song, Brandi you're fine girl, what a good wife you'll be, and about my focus upon a love I have for a pond that rose up in Springs thaw as Winter took it's seasonal bow.

The spring that rose up and formed a pond as Spring thawed out Winter's gifts and Winter came to a close.

So a life I have experience with seems to say all I want to do is go back to where the wondrous world was filled in, mixed in with many delights, surprises, and frights. The pond resembles the place from where all life emerges. A womb nature provides outside the human wife. A wife is a pond for too bringing life into the world.

A marriage is the bond there with the part of her that my part seeks out swimming to finds bonding to, to that part of her that starts the pond filling up the chamber.

I looked into the pond I came to know, I looked upon it. From within and around those that reside nearby all looked out from within, from on it, and from outside it back at me. What a wondrous bunch of folks!

Some I can only barely see, some swimming in and some walking on it. What's on my mind is probably what some of them put in it while I was being built.

All this time I felt senses that I had come from somewhere. One seemed to be too great a thrill and left me feeling guilt was always I had on it. While at the time I may have been just about able to learn, it may really have been my attention wondered what I heard garbled in by the water between me and those outside it, that all of us are just like a lot of parts of a fabulous quilt.

I can't go, I've got no reason you may know. Whatever it is when I find out what the answer to this question is on the quiz.

I'm sure I will feel that warmth from the quilt and go ... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMc8naeeSS8