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Honey, you worry that you'll be like your dad. The fact that you know how your dad was will stop you from being like him. You'll want to prove to yourself that you will do better, be better and love your child the way you should have been loved.

I'm sure I can be better than my parents. You see, my father was only good at beating the life out of me when I disobey, and at random intervals so I don't get too comfortable. My mother was different though, she was good at insulting me, making me feel miserable and, I quote, telling me that I was the "greatest mistake of her life".

 

So yeah, I'll definately be better than that, but I'm still afraid I'll find a way to mess things up. Guess I'll just have to get used to that feeling.

 

I look at my guys now and wonder how in the world they were ever as small as they were. My youngest three were just over a foot in length when born due to them being premature. I remember well thinking that I would hurt them if I held them, touched them or tried to do anything "normal" with them. Believe me when I say it take a great deal to hurt a child. And even then I sometimes think it has to be intentional rather than accidental (although that does happen as I know).

I don't think I'll ever get used to that, I'm physically quite strong and the very thought of having to hold something that small in my hands makes my skin crawl. I know babies are quite resislient to physical damage (tested that on my brother after he was born) but it still makes me scared, sometimes I'm even scared of touching my wife cause I have a feeling I could hurt her. I guess that's another thing I'll have to get used too.

 

You'll make mistakes, gosh we all did and still do, but you'll learn and your wife will be right there beside you and TOGETHER you will succeed. You are a lovely young man for all your bluster. I believe in you. Your wife believes in you. YOU need to believe in you.

Thanks, though seeing as how everyone believes in me but myself makes me feel like I underestimate my own capabilities. Wouldn't be the first time, and it's safer that way. Also, seeing as how I know myself, I don't think I can believe in me, I'd probably be expecting too much.

 

I take it her family are on board with you and your wife in having a child???

Surprisingly, yes. My wife talked to them and told them about it, they were delighted, which is not something I expected.

 

I don't know why are they so good to me though, back when we started dating I had a feeling they want to tear me apart and eat my heart with a spoon. Then they suddenly changed their opinion somewhere around last christmas and were nice to me ever since.

 

I have to say, it makes my paranoid side kick in.

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